Vitalis Im’s winding, unexpected path to academia

Violinist. Opera singer. Therapist. Professor and researcher. Vitalis Im, the Health and Human Services Department's newest assistant professor, has collected a list of life experiences that makes you think a career in academia wasn't always his life goal. Indeed, Im says that is entirely true, and, in fact, it was far from a sure thing he'd even attend college. Growing up in a low-income family in rural upstate New York, the only Asian American student in a town of about 2,000 people whose high school was colloquially referred to as a "dropout factory," Im describes his younger self as someone who "didn't have any purpose in life and definitely wasn't thinking about what I wanted to do with my future." Then, sort of out of nowhere, at age 16, he developed an intense interest in classical music. He says it was kind of weird, actually, because listening to music of any genre wasn't part of his childhood or adolescence. But browsing YouTube one day, he ran across a recording of the Second Movement of Bach's Violin Concerto in D Minorand couldn't stop listening to it. Things snowballed from there, and he immersed himself in classical music the way other kids his age consumed pop or hip hop. One day, he confided in his school librarian that he was interested in learning to play the violin. As it happened, she was also taking violin lessons, and she offered to give Im her spare instrument if he promised to practice every day.

The librarian also gave him the phone number of the woman she was taking lessons from - Anastasia Solberg - who owned a small music school in town. Im knew he couldn't afford the lessons, but he called Solberg anyway, and after meeting with her, she offered to give him lessons for free. He took his practice seriously, and after discovering he actually had a talent for it, he started thinking about music as something he could do with his life. He knew, having started lessons so late, he probably couldn't get into a decent music school. So he enrolled at the nearby community college, where he ended up studying music for three years. Then, in what he calls a "Hail Mary application," he applied to Bard College, a private liberal arts school in upstate New York, and got in. Im says Bard was a big turning point in his life. His plans going in were to major in music, which he did, though he later switched from violin to voice after discovering a latent talent as an opera singer. But Bard's educational philosophy was also to foster well-rounded people and interdisciplinary thinking. "At Bard, it was, like, 'You're studying music, but what else?'" Im says. For him, that other thing, and second major, turned out to be anthropology. Early on, he remembers taking a class called "Race and Nature in Africa," which he says was the first time he was introduced to the idea of race as a "concept." "It was super mind blowing for me, and really put so much of my own life experience in perspective," Im says. "And this was also a time when Black Lives Matter was gaining steam, so it was also connecting me to politics and so much of what was going on in the world. I had attended community college for three years, but this was the first time I really felt intellectually stimulated - that my brain got moving in that way."

Im's experience at Bard was so meaningful that it left him, maybe for the first time in his life, with a fairly clear picture of what he wanted to do. "I loved academia. I love the idea of sitting around and talking about ideas," Im says. "It seemed like a luxury to think that's even something you can do." Still, it sort of remained a dream, and, at first, he didn't see the path he'd follow to get there - other than knowing it would require a PhD. After graduating from Bard, he made ends meet for a couple years by teaching music lessons and working as a personal care aide for people with traumatic brain injuries. The latter he characterizes succinctly as "very hard work," something he says he'd never want to do again. But it did open an unfiltered line of sight into the social services system and how inefficient it can be for people. Social work wasn't something he'd really considered for a career before. But after that experience, he began thinking about it as a real possibility, even if he didn't see how his background in music and anthropology would get him there. Then, in another twist of good luck, it turned out his undergraduate anthropology mentor at Bard had studied at the University of Michigan in Ann Arbor. During a chat with her one day, she tipped him off that the university had a joint social work-anthropology program. It felt fortuitous, and he decided to apply.

In Ann Arbor, Im flourished. He says he's always seen value in knowing how to do a lot of things, and grad school enabled him to explore a whole new set of interests. In the same way that race emerged as a theme during his undergraduate years, masculinity became the framework for much of his graduate studies - inspired, in part, by the reckoning with male identities that was triggered by the #MeToo movement. During one of his field placements, he worked with men in a program called Alternatives to Domestic Aggression, which was run by a local Catholic social services organization. The heart of the program was a regular group meeting, where men who had committed acts of violence against their domestic partners would, with the help of a facilitator, sort through the messy business of accountability, self-reflection and, in many cases, their own experiences as victims of violence. Im says it was a life-changing experience. He remembers, in particular, being totally floored by the skills of the group facilitator, Jeffrie Cape. "She was incredibly kind and generous, but she also wouldn't hesitate to lay you flat when you needed it," Im says. "And you had to be like that. Eighty-five percent of these men were court mandated and they did not want to be there. They would push back and do all kinds of things to obfuscate their responsibility. So she was never just kind or never just super blunt. She was able to see that contradiction and just kind of hold it. That's what the situation demanded. That was the kind of intimacy you needed to do the work."

Im says working with the men was a profoundly challenging experience. But it also taught him something important about himself - namely, that he was made of stuff that could weather that kind of emotional intensity and therefore help people. "One of the things I learned is that there are very few spaces in the world where people can be ugly, and therapy is a space for that," Im says. "But to have spaces for that, you need people who can tolerate that." As Im began thinking more deeply about his own approach as a therapist, he found himself returning to an important part of his past. The idea that he might combine arts and music with therapy was, he says, motivated in small part by some of the literature he was reading; but mostly because he missed doing music and wanted to figure out some way to bring his passions together. "I mean, music was life changing for me," he says. "Without it, I don't know where I would be. So that was sort of on my mind. Prison, violence, men, art - just sort of thinking through all of it."

Around that time, in another instance of serendipity, he met a woman named Mary Heinen McPherson. Heinen McPherson began serving a life sentence in 1976, and while in prison, became a leading advocate for the rights of incarcerated people. Among the many things she accomplished before she was even released after a sentence commutation in 2002 was co-founding U-M's Prison Creative Arts Project, which brings various people impacted by the justice system together around the arts. Heinen McPherson was looking for someone to go to a prison and lead a music-based workshop and asked Im if he was interested. He couldn't say 'yes' fast enough. Arts-based workshops in prisons have basically been a major theme of his life, teaching and research ever since. As someone who is an artist himself, you might expect Im to be an unabashed evangelist for the power of the arts to profoundly impact people in prisons. But his own view is that we should be careful about romanticizing the arts. Im says it is absolutely true that the arts have many practical benefits for people in prisons. Often, the value of a workshop is simply breaking up the intense monotony of prison life. Sometimes, the value lies in giving people space to do something human that's generally not allowed in prison, like laughing or "being able to complain about sh*t." Sometimes it's deeper, like when a person experiences poetry as a powerful medium for self-reflection or discovers a latent talent for writing. (Im says you'd be amazed how many guys are naturals at improv theater.) But he says the same vulnerability that the arts inspire can also be "weaponized." He tells the story of a man who attended one of his poetry workshops and would write "stacks of pages" of poetry every week, often exploring deep topics, like what it's like to be a gay man living in a prison. Then, one day, during a lockdown event, Im says this man's cell was searched and the guards discovered his writing. They took turns reading it aloud to each other, laughing, and then tore it up. "So, you know, one of the goals is to give people a chance to exercise parts of their humanity that have been taken away," Im says. "But their humanity can be turned against them. Vulnerability is not always rewarded in prison. The arts aren't some kind of magic shield against the violence of prison."

More recently, Im has become deeply interested in the arts as a communication vehicle between people in prisons and people who live in the free world. Particularly, he's interested in exploring what power the arts have to help the latter understand the former. After all, unless you have been impacted by the justice system yourself, or have a close loved one who has, you likely have never been to a prison and don't have any reason or occasion to interact with someone who has been in one. But "art travels," Im says. Art, writing and poetry can be exhibited and shared outside prison walls, and people who run prisons, surprisingly, often have few objections to doing so. People in prisons can make podcasts. And it all has the potential to help those living in the free world understand - in a nonabstract way - the humanity of people in prisons, and how our lives on the outside depend, in some ways, on us being explicitly or implicitly OK with more than a million Americans living behind bars.

Right now, Im is pondering creative new ways to probe that space, including one project focused on homemade greeting cards, a popular medium that many people in prisons use to communicate with people on the outside. (Im says making greeting cards is also one of the few "honest ways to make a living" in prison.) And he's also working on a pilot program that would provide free therapeutic services for formerly incarcerated people in Michigan, which he's hoping can launch this fall. That's on top of his heavy teaching duties, which new assistant professors are, of course, expected to shoulder. Thankfully, Im says classroom life has been a pleasure so far, in no small part because he feels an affinity with many of his students. "I think, in general, students at UM-Dearborn are very pragmatic," Im says. "Part of it is a class difference. Many of them are getting a degree so they can start working, which I'm really sympathetic to, actually. I mean, when I was at community college, it was 'get me out of here so I can do what I need to do,' which was to make money." On the other hand, Im loves that he can also give his students a kind of experience that he had at Bard. He knows his "Death, Dying and Bereavement" course, which he taught last semester, may not be as essential to their life goals as organic chemistry. But there's no missing seeing their eyes - and perspectives - widen when they discuss, for example, how some cultures see cannibalism as a perfectly normal way of mourning loved ones. "To dive into those cross-cultural perspectives with them, to think generously and relatively - that's kind of the whole point of college," Im says. "To engage in this intellectual curiosity kind of for its own sake, not the sake of something else - that still feels like such a luxury to me. And when you have other more practical things in your life you have to worry about, like paying your bills or taking care of a family, you don't always have space for that. So it's a real joy to be able to share that kind of experience with them."

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Story by Lou Blouin

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